and it's been a long, long time since i had to run with a reason

and it's been a long, long time since i smiled with feeling

and it's been a long, long time since i had a chance to breathe
and it's been a long, long time since i had you near me

between minds and nights alike is where i've hid

i've seen through darkness in open windows and come out clean
but problems still weigh down my weak dead arms

maybe because problems too hard run too much through my head

but i still wonder, will you forget me when your eyes close
when your eyes close and fall asleep
and why should you care, why do i matter, don't drag you down
and in the end when your sun can't shine
and your face can't smile, know that i am ever there

 

come undo your day, don't waste it on another minute

then safe within your unopened box you'll sleep and dream away

 

another time come clean and tell me you care not just for you but us too

and kiss me softly and need me like i've been needing you

don't turn the lights out if i can still just have one more night with you

but i still wonder, i still wonder, will you forget me

when my eyes close, when my eyes close and finally sleep

maybe i won't feel this way again, maybe i'll forget

as your face slowly dims in the passing light, through the passing day

and sing to me your last song, sing to me the last one you've got

because i want to be inside your head i want to feel in your hair

i want to be with you, i want to be with you, i want to be with you

oh nothing feels the way i feel when i am around you, when i am around you

 

you said you would love me, you said you'd loved me but what else can i do?

i've lost all of me, i lost all of me, lost all of me, i lost all of me, to you, to you

Can you see it? Can you see what I saw? What they never saw? The miles beneath these feet, the miles that I had to walk, the ones I could not resist. Can you understand it, as I understood it? The choice I had to make, for the better of the world, the choice that did not have a chance in hell but the hope that I had… the hope for a better tomorrow. And can you feel it under foot, the median of my life, leading me on like a rope, pulling me to you, with you, and in you I found me. Can you see it in the sun as it sets; it’s me in the light, fading out, with the coming dusk. Can you walk until dawn for me when my feet cannot go on? Can you let me feel me, holding myself in your arms? The texture of my body, just the road set out before you. Can you read my face like that map in your hands? I am the search in your mind for the prize at the end of the lane. With every dip in my posture, make a trench on your map, and every tip of my tongue on your cheek, causes a mountain in your field. Can you place the signs to the features of my face; can you graph my posture into twisting, winding paths? The median my middle, and the half and half of me that loved you along this road I had to walk. So what do you see? What did you see in me, that you saw in this, this road upon your feet, within the air your breathe, and the miles of your journey, the journey you had to take, no chance, no choice, no hope but hope of tomorrow, from today. So can you see me now, as I saw you then, walking, alone, pulled taunt by your median, on and on again until you found the end, the end of the rope at the end of your road, here in the end of my life. How many miles did you walk before you could see me? How many lifetimes are under your feet before you come to me? So can you feel me? In your road, and on your arms, I am your highway, with the setting sun; I am your hope for tomorrow, with the climbing moon. And can you carry me home, to the place where I belong? Let my lightening lead you, let my eyes in the roadway signs show you the turns, and let my curves be your comfort along this winding road, let me turn you as you go, and I’ll lead you through, to where you and I must go. So can you see it, can you see what I saw yet? What they never saw? Can you see this road as the way to a hopeful tomorrow, moving on and building up from all of today’s mistakes? And can you stare into the sun right there, stare as hard as you can… can you understand yet if we’ve been lied too? Can you tell me if you’ll go blind? Have you already gone blind? Then, if you have gone blind, and you stare into that sun, will you not be shaded by the clouds? So is the light not all that bright? Or is the truth to painful to comprehend at this time? Is the light not where we should be? Is the light not the enemy when your eyes cannot delve into it as deeply as they can the dark? Maybe the truth hurts, and the road never forgets, but do you want to walk on blind to the world around you, do you want to loose your eyes for a truth you can’t even find? And can you feel me yet in every crevice of your choice? In every turn you go, every road you know, can you remember me there when you have no where else to go? And do you know, when you go, and you walk, when you tread your own lifetimes under these roads, beneath your feet, I’m holding you up, holding you tall, keeping you strong. Have you forgotten where I’m from, the humble origins of these hills? The delicate past of these winding curves, my hip and lips, my eyes and legs, the highway, the night way, the freeway, the roadway, the skyway, the cobble stone lane with the one way sign. I am every where for you. You haven’t forgotten have you, that you can see me again in every tree and every hill, in every sky and every star, I am there. I am the setting sun and the climbing moon, the falling dusk and the shooting star. I am the rising dawn and the misting dew; I am upon the grass, and in the median, my half and half, with the halves that love you. Because somewhere here between this Heaven and it’s Hell, a stone fell in, and now we’re carving away our figures, carving in our bones with this stone, And I look up, upside down into the night sky, with the flesh of a new birth, a revelation, a renaissance combing through my veins, but I see only the discontent stars and the rushing suns competing with the vacant moons, baring stares so untrue, as the sunlight that will blind my eyes, the lights of truth with the piercing brilliance. And I wonder to myself if we have this all wrong, if you have to go down to rise up. With every fall will we not rebuild stronger and stronger? So maybe we’re wrong, and Heaven truly waits below, as Hell rose up to never fall and learn from its mistakes. And here I am in the same place I have always been… So can you see it yet? Can you see all that I saw? Can you see what they never saw? So can you see this road as a walkway into tomorrow? Can you see these turns as the end of yesterday’s mistakes, each addition to your map, a new horizon, and a new fate? Can you see me still, in every twist and turn, in every rain drop on the brim of your hat, or the window sill as you look out and wonder, where I am, what the night looks like to me, and if my median ended? If I am free… Can you see it? Can you see what I saw? What they never saw? Can you see where we are, where we've been, where we're going? The miles beneath these feet, the miles that I had to walk, the ones I could not resist. Do you know the steps she took to bring us here? Can you understand it, as I understand it? The choices I had to make, for the better of the world, the choices I had to make, for the better of our future. Can you comprehend the choice that did not have a chance in hell but the hope that we had… the hope for a better tomorrow for everyone involved. Can you feel it under foot, the median of her life, leading us on like a rope to you, and you and you, and once in us, we found each other. Can you see it in the sun as it sets; it's her in the light, fading out, with the coming dusk. Can she walk until dawn for us when we feel our feet cannot go on? She will walk on, each new stride stronger then the last, with the growing burden upon her back, and we will never once utter thanks. Ungrateful in every way, still she loves us the same. "Can you let me feel me, holding myself in your arms? The texture of my body, the road set out before you. Can you read my face like the map in your hands? With every dip in my posture, make a trench on your map, and every tip of my tongue on your cheek, causes a mountain in your field. Can you place the signs to the features of my face; can you graph my posture into twisting, winding paths? The median my middle, and the half and half of me that loved you all along this road I had to walk." So what do you see now? What did you see in her, that you saw in this, this road upon your feet, the air your breathe, and the miles that you journey, the journey you had to take, no chance, no choice, no hope but hope of tomorrow, from today. So can you see her now, as she saw us then, walking, alone, pulled taunt by her median, on and on again until we found the end, the end of the rope at the end of her road, in the absolute center of her heart, here in our lives. How many miles did you walk before you could see her? Before you could feel her, before you could hear her. How many lifetimes are under your feet before you came to see, the miracle of tomorrow? "So can you feel me? In your road, and on your arms, I am your highway, with the setting sun; I am your hope for tomorrow, with the climbing moon. And can you carry me home, to the place where I belong? Let my lightening lead you, let my eyes in the roadway signs show you the turns, and let my curves be your comfort along this winding road, let me turn you as you go, and I'll lead you through, to where you and I must go." So can you see it, can you see what I saw yet? Can you see what they never saw? Can you see this road as the straightest way to a hopeful tomorrow, moving on and building up from today's mistakes? And can you stare into the sun right there, stare as hard as you can… can you understand yet if we've been lied too? Will you go blind? Have you gone blind? And if you stare into that sun, will you not be shaded by the clouds? So then is the light not all that bright? Or is the truth to painful to comprehend at this time? Is the light not where we should be? Is the light not the enemy when your eyes cannot delve into it as deeply as they can the dark? "Can you feel me yet in every crevice of your choice? In every turn you go, every road you know, can you remember me there when you have no where else to go? And do you know, when you go, and you walk, when you tread your own lifetimes under these roads, beneath your feet, I'm holding you up, holding you tall, keeping you strong. Have you forgotten where I'm from, the humble origins of these hills? The delicate past of these winding curves, my hips and lips, my eyes and legs, the highway, the night way, the freeway, the roadway, the skyway, the cobble stone lane with the one way sign. I am every where for you." "You haven't forgotten have you, that you can see me again in every tree and every hill, in every sky and every star, I am there. I am the setting sun and the climbing moon, the falling dusk and the shooting star. I am the rising dawn and the misting dew; I am upon the grass and in the median, my half and half, with the halves that love all of you." Because somewhere between Heaven and Hell a stone fell in, and now we are here, carving away our figures, carving in our bones with this stone, and I look upside down into the night sky, with the flesh of a new birth combing through my veins, and I see only the discontent stars and the rushing suns competing with the vacant moons, baring stares so untrue, as the sunlight that will blind my eyes, the lights of truth with the piercing brilliance. And I wonder to myself if we have this all wrong, if you have to go down to rise up, with every fall will we not rebuild strong and stronger? So maybe we're wrong, and Heaven waits below, as Hell rose up to never fall and learn from its mistakes. And here I am in the same place I have always been…  "Can you see me still, in every twist and turn, in every drop of rain on the brim of your hat; or the windowsill as you look up and wonder where I am? As you wonder, what the night looks like to me, if my median ended. If I am free. Can you see me anymore in the rain, as it sifts through your eyes, have you closed them to preserve this night, forever inside. Forever closed, as I'm forever holding tight, never loosening, never regretting, never ending, never letting go. I am the road beneath your feet; I am the turn in the wind, and the curve in the street. I am the median with the half heart and half soul, the halves that make up the whole that loves you for the steps you've taken down this road. So can you see me still, whispering light, and traversing hope, like a line, and a feather I float straight down forever, to you? Never a stray, never regret, never an unanswered prayer, never will I forget, if you pray strong and true. For I am the universe, and I am the world; I am the Earth, in a pile of skittles on your counter top in the library down the street. I am your Angel and I am your army, I am your lover and sufferer, but believe in me and I am free, as free as you could ever hope for me to be, as free as you'll someday be."

By Joseph Andrew Nite

 

I’m tripping over myself and fighting what’s inside

I’m tripping over this feeling and looking for the right

Do I need you now, do I want you more?

Should I just move on, like I did before?

I’m looking over myself and sorting through this mind

I’m concealing the feelings and looking for more time

Should I just move on, or do I need you here?

Do I really want you now, or is this all fear?

 

Destiny waits in front of me, destiny so cruel and contrary

Here I am back where I was; here I am back where I was

Thinking and waiting, and bleeding and crying

Dreaming and screaming, and praying and trying

 

The clouds won’t part beyond the moon that’s out during the suns set

And my heart breaks its sound the cry of my eyes final breath

That gasping breath with the falling tears

Unbuckled by the twist of this growing fear

So my hands up to the stars fist clasped tight around this night

My soul grips tight to this memory beating my heart endlessly tonight

Do you love me, like I love you, hold strong eternity

Hold you like you hold me, hold strong memory

 

Destiny waits in front of me, destiny so cruel and contrary

Here I am back where I was; here I am back where I was

Thinking and waiting, and bleeding and crying

Dreaming and screaming, and praying and trying

 

I still remember, you always have, I always will. Love is now and love is still

I will remember, what you always have, I will too. Love is now and love is true

You still remember, I always have, you always will. Love was then and love is still

You will remember, what I always have, you will too. Love was then and love is true

 

Destiny waits in front of me, destiny so cruel and contrary

Here I am back where I was; here I am back where I was

Thinking and waiting, and bleeding and crying

Dreaming and screaming, and praying and trying

 

 

Good bye my dear, good bye my love (Don’t change your mind)

Good bye my girl, good bye my one (Don’t turn your back)

Just say good bye tonight, with a kiss in the ever after

Don’t worry I will be alright, you know it had to happen

Every day becomes a night, but don’t turn out the light

 

Good bye my dear good bye my love (Don’t change your mind)

Good bye my girl good bye my one (Don’t turn your back)

Take me away I want you to take me with you

Take my hands today I want you to take me with you

Take me away but don’t turn out the lights

 

Don’t change your mind (But don’t turn out the lights)

Don’t turn your back (But don’t turn out the lights)

Good bye my dear, good bye my one

Don’t change your mind (But don’t turn out the lights)

Don’t turn your back (But don’t turn out the lights)

Good bye my girl good bye my love

 

Don’t change your mind (But don’t turn out the lights)

Don’t turn your back (But don’t turn out the lights)

Good bye my dear good bye my one

Don’t change your mind (But don’t turn out the lights)

Don’t turn your back (But don’t turn out the lights)

Just please don’t turn off the lights

By Joseph Andrew Nite

 

I can’t feel myself tonight

And I can’t hear your thoughts today

The catacombs of my mind are locked away

I can’t whisper quietly to this evening light

And I can’t do anything more then pray

To open up the feelings I have sealed away

For me and for tomorrow, for you and for your soul
for us and for this sorrow, for you the one I can’t hold

Now my heart has grown silent without your call

My heart has grown cold without your warmth

Now my heart has grown old behind this wall

My heart has grown unstable without your comfort

 

And I can’t feel the soft rain tapping down tonight

As it lightly whispers your voice tender to my ears

Wallowing in wish lists from the waves in my mind

And I can’t feel the gentle, soothing, cooling moonlight

As I’m drowning inside of my own childish fears

Walking circles in the waters of my inner sight

For them and for the loss, for you and for the feelings

For the chain and cross of He who holds all meanings

Now there’s nothing left but the rain in my eyes

Nothing that I can speak to try and keep

The pain from growing wild and uncontrolled inside

I just wish this was all just a dream

 

Just ordinary people underneath our Lord’s sun

Why was it us, why were we the ones?

And now it’s coming down wrapped up in clouds of love

Why was it us, why were we the ones?

Just ordinary people underneath the stars

Why is it us, why are we who we are?

And now it’s coming down wrapped up in wings of doves

Why is it us, why are we who we are?

 

And I will meet you again my dearest, where all the roads end

Where tomorrow meets today and the past is woven in

You’ll be waiting there for me, on a storm clouds breath of wind

The gust of life so fragile and agile, suspiring on the horizon

And we will be together, one again among the rest upon the end

Resting as breathless as the night, dreaming as seamless as the skies

Just you and me, just us and no one else tonight

 

Just ordinary people underneath our Lady’s moon

Why did you have to leave me so soon?

And now it’s come down wrapped up in the arms of God above

Why did you have to leave me so soon?

 

And underneath the moon I’ve planted a sunflower for you

Someday soon I hope that it will grace us all and bloom

Blossoming beautiful and bold, spreading high above the world

Thick contour lines across the sky, draped inside your eyes

Like this rainbow in my hands stretching to the night sky

Shining radiant light like a crystal from within your eyes

Nothing is more beautiful to me, more beautiful then you